[ he really wishes Jae-ha would react. He wants him to be scared, angry, disgusted, something to prove that Hikage was right, that he'd be rejected and hated, but he doesn't even look surprised. His bluster starts to leak out of him like air from a balloon, and where he wishes he looked threatening or even monstrous, he just looks lost and scared. No matter who Hikage thinks he really is, those emotions are the real thing.
He hates this. He hates it because Jae-ha is right. He's scared of the truth, he's scared of being rejected, he's so scared of it that he'd rather die - that's how he ended up in this situation in the first place, as he'll remember in tomorrow's trial. But he's done so much wrong that he can't just pretend it didn't happen and be Hikage.
His hands shake; he doesn't respond at first. ]
S... Shut up. Just shut up... You're lying to me. Choose... I can't choose...
[ how can he, when both parts of him are real? even if he was a white butterfly once, his wings are so stained now that he may as well be a black butterfly, too. ]
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He hates this. He hates it because Jae-ha is right. He's scared of the truth, he's scared of being rejected, he's so scared of it that he'd rather die - that's how he ended up in this situation in the first place, as he'll remember in tomorrow's trial. But he's done so much wrong that he can't just pretend it didn't happen and be Hikage.
His hands shake; he doesn't respond at first. ]
S... Shut up. Just shut up... You're lying to me. Choose... I can't choose...
[ how can he, when both parts of him are real? even if he was a white butterfly once, his wings are so stained now that he may as well be a black butterfly, too. ]