[ he doesn't believe that promise for a second; it rolls off of him like water. He can't trust people; he doesn't remember why, but he never has been able to believe in them. Innately, he believes they'll betray him. Maybe it's because he knows he's always lying, himself - but he's also certain that it's something left over from who he used to be.
Not that he can think about that right now. When he approached Jae-ha, he'd intended to yell and curse at him and scare him into submission. Instead, he's standing before him, quivering, feeling as vulnerable as if he was just stripped naked. Hikage wonders how he knows so much; maybe Jae-ha's a clairvoyant, too, and can see into what he's feeling just by being near him. The ludicrous idea of choosing burns him like the sun. If he chose, he'd have to tell someone.
(Even the fact that he's thinking that means he's already chosen; he doesn't realize it.) ]
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Not that he can think about that right now. When he approached Jae-ha, he'd intended to yell and curse at him and scare him into submission. Instead, he's standing before him, quivering, feeling as vulnerable as if he was just stripped naked. Hikage wonders how he knows so much; maybe Jae-ha's a clairvoyant, too, and can see into what he's feeling just by being near him. The ludicrous idea of choosing burns him like the sun. If he chose, he'd have to tell someone.
(Even the fact that he's thinking that means he's already chosen; he doesn't realize it.) ]
... Are you going to kill me?