[ too bad they are talking about it because everyone says he needs to communicate with them better!!
his eyes lower as he listens, the wry smile on his face dissipating as quickly as it had appeared. He knows the reasoning, of course. It's perfectly logical - practical, even. In any other situation, Hikage would be agreeing with them. He's always a pragmatist.
Until it comes to his own feelings. Then it all goes out the window. Both of them have seen it in him, and he recognizes it in himself, too. ]
I know. [ a beat. ] That's why I said you were strong.
[ he lifts his gaze from the floor to Belph, then to Steph, before it falls to the ground again. ]
... I'm not strong like you. I want revenge. Even if what happened was logical - even if it doesn't make sense to want it... I can't stop. When I remembered, it was all I could think about. When they turned against me in that store, I wanted it, too. It felt good to be angry...
[ ... ]
... But I thought about you more than I did hurting them. If I got to see you again, I wanted you to welcome me back. I couldn't act on those desires as Hikage. [ he sighs through his nose, chewing his bottom lip. ] ... If I hated them, you might change your mind about me. But if you hated them, that meant you wouldn't ever forget me. ... I was lonely.
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his eyes lower as he listens, the wry smile on his face dissipating as quickly as it had appeared. He knows the reasoning, of course. It's perfectly logical - practical, even. In any other situation, Hikage would be agreeing with them. He's always a pragmatist.
Until it comes to his own feelings. Then it all goes out the window. Both of them have seen it in him, and he recognizes it in himself, too. ]
I know. [ a beat. ] That's why I said you were strong.
[ he lifts his gaze from the floor to Belph, then to Steph, before it falls to the ground again. ]
... I'm not strong like you. I want revenge. Even if what happened was logical - even if it doesn't make sense to want it... I can't stop. When I remembered, it was all I could think about. When they turned against me in that store, I wanted it, too. It felt good to be angry...
[ ... ]
... But I thought about you more than I did hurting them. If I got to see you again, I wanted you to welcome me back. I couldn't act on those desires as Hikage. [ he sighs through his nose, chewing his bottom lip. ] ... If I hated them, you might change your mind about me. But if you hated them, that meant you wouldn't ever forget me. ... I was lonely.