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psychedelica) wrote2018-06-23 09:37 pm
psychedelica) wrote2018-06-23 09:37 pm
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[ compared to their meeting from last week, Hikage's attitude is markedly different... Or, perhaps more accurately, it's the same as it usually is. Rather than quivering with some kind of dark anticipation or grinning like a wolf, he looks... stoic. Bemused. A lot like normal Hikage, really.
Things didn't go quite as planned for him this week - both in terms of the trial, and in terms of his personal life. He's lost. But he still comes to collect, as promised, knocking at Akechi's door. ]
Open up. It's Hikage.
Things didn't go quite as planned for him this week - both in terms of the trial, and in terms of his personal life. He's lost. But he still comes to collect, as promised, knocking at Akechi's door. ]
Open up. It's Hikage.
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[ the reasons are fairly obvious to Hikage; he tilts his head. ]
More than fulfilling a wish of your own? That's surprising.
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Perhaps.
[it's hard to admit to that. and even now, telling that kind of truth leaves a bad taste in his mouth. but people like Ion, like Eichi, like Monika, like Natsuo, have already started to change the makeup of his heart. and he thinks so many others beyond those four are capable of seeing through him, that maybe now is not really the time to hide it]
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Why? Do you really think he can forgive you?
[ ion is probably the type to forgive. hikage knows that. but he wants to hear the answer to this from akechi. maybe he wants to plant a seed of doubt, to see that despair grow... or maybe, just maybe, he's projecting a little bit here. ]
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[Akechi finds himself rearing back, as though slapped, expression twisting into something unpleasant. he wants to argue. wants to insist it isn't about forgiveness. has never been about forgiveness. but if he did that, the'd have to admit to so many other things]
[that he's drawn in by Ion's kindness. his giving nature. the fact that he knows what Akechi's true face looks like, and is still there to support him. that the kindness Ion gives is something Akechi has craved for so, so long]
I don't give a shit if anyone forgives me or not
[he snaps, words cold and sharp]
GOD IM SORRY AKECHI
[ The ugly reaction only feeds the master's satisfaction - so pleasant, so raw. That little semblance of control over something is all that's kept him going for so many years. For a moment, he can forget about the flutters of happiness he feels when his partner confides in him or people call themselves his friends, and pretend that he is confident in the truth he's found. ]
People like you and I don't fit into their world. You can't go back. You should know better. [ a beat. ] But maybe it's good if you're close to him. Yes - he'd rush to his death to heal you in an instant. Both of you could fulfill your objectives.
NO I LOVE HIKAGE. . .
[everything he says is completely, 100% correct, without any doubts whatsoever. but even so, every word seems to sting, as though Akechi is realizing that maybe, just maybe, he finally allowed himself to believe that he did belong. for just a second]
[what an idiot he is]
[he shakes his head, forces himself to calm down, one hand pressed against his temple. he also pulls up a strained smile]
Yes. . . that is one benefit of him believing he is my friend. If I'm close to death, surely he'll throw himself in front of the bullet for my sake.
I HATE HIM
Keep that in mind. I doubt you're out of the woods yet. Even if they're acting like they accept you, most of them would still kill you for what you've done. He can be your failsafe. [ it's a horrible thing to say, he knows - ion is just a boy - but he makes himself smile, and clings to the chill that he feels. ] ... That's all I have to say to you. You can rest.
DO YOU THO
[he knows that most of the castle, a few people aside, would kill him the moment it became convenient for them. it's just. . . for now? they don't have to, they don't need to. and that has been his only saving grace]
Then if I'm allowed to rest, I'd like to return to my room now.