[ he holds his arms out to the side, like a monarch inviting either praise or death. ]
I told you that I was dead. Most souls pass on soon after their mortal lives end... But I never could, no matter how hard I tried. I was trapped between worlds, alone, with no memory of who I was or where I came from. The weeks turned into months, and the months turned into years. [ as he continues, he starts seeming more manic; in his heart, he knows he should hold himself back if he really actually wants her to stay, but he can't bring himself to do it - he just continues to ramble. ] Do you know what that does to you? I started forgetting what it meant to be human at all. I stopped feeling anything -- no, I still remembered how to be angry. It wasn't fair that I was the only one who had to suffer. So I took control. It was my castle, and I was its master. I started pitting the other dead against each other for fun. I would turn them into beasts, and snuff out their hope... I loved their cries of despair and their tears. I would relish their suffering, even if it was only a fraction of mine. It was the only thing that could satisfy me...
[ hikage doesn't know if he uses past tense because he speaks of events in the past, or because he's talking about things that aren't true anymore. ]
And do you know what? I was doing the same thing here. When I told you I wanted to protect everyone with you, I was lying. I just wanted you to trust me. Haha. That's right... I don't really care what happens to the people here. I'm exactly the type of person you despise.
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... I'm the same as Tiger and Dragon.
[ he holds his arms out to the side, like a monarch inviting either praise or death. ]
I told you that I was dead. Most souls pass on soon after their mortal lives end... But I never could, no matter how hard I tried. I was trapped between worlds, alone, with no memory of who I was or where I came from. The weeks turned into months, and the months turned into years. [ as he continues, he starts seeming more manic; in his heart, he knows he should hold himself back if he really actually wants her to stay, but he can't bring himself to do it - he just continues to ramble. ] Do you know what that does to you? I started forgetting what it meant to be human at all. I stopped feeling anything -- no, I still remembered how to be angry. It wasn't fair that I was the only one who had to suffer. So I took control. It was my castle, and I was its master. I started pitting the other dead against each other for fun. I would turn them into beasts, and snuff out their hope... I loved their cries of despair and their tears. I would relish their suffering, even if it was only a fraction of mine. It was the only thing that could satisfy me...
[ hikage doesn't know if he uses past tense because he speaks of events in the past, or because he's talking about things that aren't true anymore. ]
And do you know what? I was doing the same thing here. When I told you I wanted to protect everyone with you, I was lying. I just wanted you to trust me. Haha. That's right... I don't really care what happens to the people here. I'm exactly the type of person you despise.