[ he's intimately familiar with that feeling, considering it's been building in his heart for the past two weeks or so. Hikage doesn't understand why he's still here. Now that he remembers, he understands even more that he shouldn't be.

And yet, despite understanding that emotion so distinctly, he doesn't like to hear Belph say that. ]

Don't throw your life away. [ rare is it for him to take the optimistic position - yet here he is. ] Death is painful. I remember how scared I was. Even though I was the one killing myself...

[ at the time, he'd thought it would be worse to live. Now, he doesn't know. ]

Is your existence that miserable?